Sinire.

I don't plan to tell you completely about me.

Besides, I'm a female. I love to write. I love poetry. I love music. I love friends and family. I love giraffes. I love Red Monsters and Purple Amps. I love Photography. I'm A Christian. Jesus Christ Is My Savior.

John 3:6- NIV.

For God So Loved The World That He Gave Up His One Only Son, And For Whoever Believes In Him Shall Not Perish But Have Eternal Life.

Pointless.

Pointless. A pointless crush. A pointless heartache. How did you manage to break my heart, without even being mine. How did you manage to make me as happy, with out saying a word. How did you manage to have me so cought up in your presence, without us even being close. There was somthing about you that made happy. There was somthing about you that made me think i actully had a chance. There was somthing about you, that made me think.. That wishing at 11:11 would be worth staying up at night. Had me thinking everything would fall togetherr. The thought of you flooded my mind all the time. They way you smiled filled my heart. You, yourself alone made me feel happy. But, i knew it was pointless. A pointless crush a pointless heart ache. I let you break me. The worst part is you weren't even mine..

Starts Hello, Ends Good-Bye.

Your palms are sweaty.
You feel your heart drop to your stomach.
There he is, the 10-foot walk, feels like 100 miles.
You have the feeling,
You know what is about to happen.
He is looking at the ground, hands fidgeting.
Barley can make eye contact with you.
All you can think about is,
The first time you saw him.
The first time you talked to him.
The first time you hugged.
The day he asked you to be his one and only.
The first time you held hands.
The first time you kissed
The first time you have ever felt this way.
All you can do is,
Fight back tears
Try to convince yourself nothing is wrong.
That you’re just working yourself up
That everything is okay.
When you know
Here comes the last time you will ever be in his presences.
Here comes the last time you will be this close to him.
Here comes the last time.
The last hug
The last word,
That ends it all.
That changes everything.
The last word that brings,
Tears
Pain
Disappointment
Heartbreak
The hardest thing you have ever had to deal with.
Finally,
You’re face to face…
Your palms are sweaty.
You feel your heart drop to your stomach.
The 10-foot walk, which felt like 100 miles, is over.
You have the feeling.
You know what is about to happen.
You prepare yourself.
Act like it doesnt hurt you.
When inside, you’re torn.
His words that used to sound like pure music to you,
Sound like nails scratching against a chalkboard.
Then you hear the last good-bye.
It’s over.
Hello,
Tears
Pain
Disappointment
Heartbreak
Good-bye,
Smiles
Happiness
The most amazing feeling you have ever experienced.
It’s done.
Your heart rest in pieces.
You were let down, again.
There is no use in looking back.
Everything starts with a hello.
And everything ends with a good-bye.

I'm Cinderella, And Your Prince Charming.

It must have been a fairytail…
This day, when I finally realized, you.
You were the reason for this unique joy that has taken me over.
The way you smile, laugh, talk floods my heart with an amazing feeling.
The way your presence alone, makes my smile grow.
When I see you, all I want to do is be your arms.
No one understands you like I do.
I’m Cinderella, and you’re my Prince Charming.
Can’t you tell?
Can’t you see?
There is something more to you and me.
I see it.
The world can see it.
When will you see it?

Following.

Follow your heart.
I swear you won’t fall apart.
Your heart will lead you where you want to go.
I followed, and followed.
And I now find myself going in circles.
Going no where.
Going mad.
The thought that I let you take over my mine, my heart,
Kills me.
You lead me down this road.
Beautiful things are evolving around me
i dream, I hope there is something more hidden in distance
Beyond what my mind can conceive.
Something amazing.
So I thought.
I followed you.
I followed my heart,
Down a a beautiful winding road,
To find myself lost.
To find myself shaking from pain I feel.
To find myself on a never-ending dark road to nowhere,
To nothing
To heartbreak
To rejection.
I followed you.
I followed my heart.
And now, I’m lost.

5-14-10

5-14-10

First, your friends.
Then, you start to thinks he’s cute.
After that, you start thinking about him.
Before you know it, you like him.
But what does it matter?
He doesn't like you.
That’s all you tell yourself.
You keep it bottled up inside,
Until, he finds out.
You have no clue how.
Your best friend walks up to you..
Looks you in the eye and says,
He Knows.
You instantly feel your heart drop.
You wish he liked you,
And Yet you still feel that
Why would it even matter feeling.
He probably doesn't like me.
I’m not his type.
And before you know it,
You don’t know what to do.
You get nervous when you see him
Your afraid to go around him.
You feel embarrassed when your around him.
You find yourself trying to avoid him,
When all you want is him.
Nothing seams to make sense.
All you want to do,
Is look him in the eyes..
And tell him how you feel.
Not what someone else said.
But your true feelings.
But your too scarred.
Maybe I’ll text him..
No.
He won’t reply.
I guess I’m just a girl, who falls too easily.
He isn't into me anyway.

3-1-10

3-1-10


Your palms are sweaty.
You feel your heart drop to your stomach.
There he is, the 10-foot walk, feels like 100 miles.
You have the feeling,
You know what is about to happen.
He is looking at the ground, hands fidgeting.
Barley can make eye contact with you.
All you can think about is,
The first time you saw him.
The first time you talked to him.
The first time you hugged.
The day he asked you to be his one and only.
The first time you held hands.
The first time you kissed
The first time you have ever felt this way.
All you can do is,
Fight back tears
Try to convince yourself nothing is wrong.
That you’re just working yourself up
That everything is okay.
When you know
Here comes the last time you will ever be in his presences.
Here comes the last time you will be this close to him.
Here comes the last time.
The last hug
The last word,
That ends it all.
That changes everything.
The last word that brings,
Tears
Pain
Disappointment
Heartbreak
The hardest thing you have ever had to deal with.
Finally,
You’re face to face…
Your palms are sweaty.
You feel your heart drop to your stomach.
The 10-foot walk, which felt like 100 miles, is over.
You have the feeling.
You know what is about to happen.
You prepare yourself.
Act like it doesn't hurt you.
When inside, you’re torn.
His words that used to sound like pure music to you,
Sound like nails scratching against a chalkboard.
Then you hear the last good-bye.
It’s over.
Hello,
Tears
Pain
Disappointment
Heartbreak
Good-bye,
Smiles
Happiness
The most amazing feeling you have ever experienced.
It’s done.
Your heart rest in pieces.
You were let down, again.
There is no use in looking back.
Everything starts with a hello.
And everything ends with a good-bye.